MILF Life

I’ll keep it short and sweet.

Lady Gaga took pretty much everthing. This woman is talented, she deserves it. Her dresses were over the top as always, but DAMN those shoes were high. I would most likely break my foot in those.

Katy Perry mugged Lady Gaga everytime she won an award. I saw it, and I have a DVR to prove it. Be jelous of real talent fame whore.

Ke$ha’s trash bag dress wasn’t bad.

I’m not the biggest Nicky Minaj fan but she bwas ok.

Justin Bieber lip synched. *gasp* Whatever. He’ll go away soon enough.

Usher was cool, too bad all his dance moves took all his breath :( Still, we all know he can sing.

Eminen was great. Rhiana was not. She couldn’t hold a note and she was barely moving so she can’t blame it on dancing and performing at the same time.

Taylor Swift is a sweety.

Kanye’s song is the shit. *toast to the douch bags*

Kim Kardashian can’t act a 2 minute skit. It’s ok, she’s nice.

Drake was cool. Mary J. Blige was way better. What a powerful voice.

Lindsay Lohan was funny. I forgot why I used to like her so much. She is a good actress. We’ll see what happends with her.

Sofia Vergara is a cutie. I love her and her accent.

But the person who made my night was freaking Chelsea Handler!! Gosh woman you were funny. I know they kind of censored you but you did great! Your skit with Lindsay and all those rappers slapping you was hella funny. Also the brunch meet up was funny too. I honestly really wantched the VMAs because of her. Now I definitely want to go see you on your show. Not that I didn’t want to before, but now I’m actually gonna take my fat baby and my dog and even Jesse to see you. Even if they don’t want to.

Overall it was a good show. Nothing too exciting happened, but that’s ok. I liked it more than last year when Katy Perry performed and couldn’t hold one note to her song.

Good Bye Sharkie Sparky!!!

(for those of you that don’t know what I’m referring to, it’s my first car ever)

Shakie Sparky is a 2004 Ford Focus. I FUCKING love this car to death. I had my first ticket, two accidents (one I was at fault, the other one I wasn’t). I practically lived in this car while I had it. This car has taken me to high school, college, parties, errands, clubs, friend’s houses, parks, road trips, and even the hospital when I had contractions. Although this car was never really mine because it’s actually my dad’s and I just kind of took over it, I drove it 95% of the time. All of my junk was in there, my books, some make up, tons of clothes. Boxer has pretty much traveled all over the bay in that car and Shakie Sparky has even carried the most precious cargo ever, my baby Ayla.

Too many stories in that car. I have gotten lost with this car, I had my frist flat with this car, and someone even keyed my car in a parking lot for some reason. I have yet to find who did that, and believe me, I will key their face since they keyed Sharkie’s hood, which is his face.

Justine and I came up with his name. At work. We were bored. Anyways, Sharkie because he’s the color of a shark, aka dark grey, and Sparky because he’s candy coated. Sharkie is also a pre teen. Like I said, we were bored. He’s also a boy because…well he just looks like a boy. I left bad for poor Sharkie when his ear fell off :( (right side mirror). Hit and run people. Justine and I thought ”what would Jesus do?” and just like Jesus, we put his ear back…with duck tape. Then there was the time where I hit the hitch of a pick up, Sharkie’s front bumper had a “pimple”. The poor thing was always dirty because I was really lazy and didn’t really want to clean him. He has the best speakers and a pretty good bass for a car that I never really upgraded. Sharkie was a good car, anyone who hates on Fords has never had one, and probably doesn’t deserve one. 

I’m very grateful that my dad gave me another car that’s officially mine, but I would a hundred times take Shakie Sparky over any car. Some day I’ll pimp you out Sharkie Sparky. Thank you for been a good reliable car :)

Ayla is doing great :)

Her formula is obviously working for her, a pillow under her while she sleeps on her back and a fan have done wonders. She has grown so much! She’s 3 1/2 months old and her 3 month old clothes already barely fit her. I’m really looking foward to when I can finally feed her solid food :) Although I feel like she’s growing up so fast…I, in a way, can’t wait to see what she’s going to be like as she gets older. I know a lot of moms hate seeing their babies grow but I don’t. I like to see how she progresses and how her personality develops. I love her to death she is so cute and a little spoiled. Lately her new thing is to “walk”. She takes little steps and looks so happy…I love my baby.

(This is Jesse, her husband, and I tried to read a book. She saw, then decided she had to take my book and sit right on top of me so I couldn’t read. Now that I’m not trying to read she feels content to go back to her blogging. I love my wife anyways)

Jesse and I have been planning on moving to Sacramento for a while, and so far we think this might work. I’m gonna miss my family and friends :( I’m going to go to school there and he can transfer jobs to Sac, now I do really hope it all turns out for the best. He would probably have to move there about a month before to try things out…I’m going to miss him so much.

It’s night night time it’s been a long week ZZZZZZzzzzzzz……

I know I’m a little late with this…but better late than never.

I’m not dissapointed on how they decided to end “The Hills”. I actually think it was a vey smart way of ending the whole show. I know Brody said that there was another scene with Lauren Conrad were they were acting lovey dovey but the producers chosed not to use it. I’m kind of happy with that since we all know Brody is with fugly face Avril Lavigne and Lauren is with that one dude and it would have been unbelieable.

I have never cried over “The Hills” before that once scene were Brody asks Kristin to stay. That was such a sad scene. Besides that scene and the very end I didn’t find this episode very interesting.

I miss this show SO MUCH already. I DVRed the marathon and have been watching the whole thing again. Poor Ayla, all she has been hearing lately has been fake drama. I’m so hooked on it I’m sad they ended it.

I guess all I have to hope for is for MTV to not dissapoint with “The Jersey Shore”.

Jesse and I have been discussing moving there for a while now, and today I checked out Sacramento City College and houses online around there and it looks promising. I would be so happy if we moved there! It would be awesome to start fresh, new home, new school, new people all around us.

I guess the next step is to find out for sure that Jesse can transfer warehouses from Milpitas to Sacramento. It’s all about patience here, but I really cannot wait to live there. After we can confirm Jesse’s new job, we can go ahead and find a house to live in. I found apartments too but honestly Sacramento is cheap so we can rent a house for less than we rent an apartment here. In between all of this I would have to go up to Sac and register to their college.

The few downsides to this are our families and friends we’ll be leaving behind. Obviously we will miss our families and friends here, specially yours truly since I don’t know anyone that lives in Sacramento. Our families would miss us, but worst of all, once we move there, I’m on my own. No one can come in 15mi to come help me with the baby. No one can take care of the baby while I run some errands. That’s a scary thought. But if we live there Jesse can definetly come home early and can help me out with baby Ayla. I sure hope we can move there, because the situation in the bay area ain’t looking so promising. Besides I don’t really want to raise a child here.

However, if we decide to stay here I would be happy too. I like it here. I do want the grandparents to see Ayla grow.

This is really hard for me to say but I just don’t like this name. Not for Ayla. I tried so hard liking it for the sake of Jesse who does but I hate it. Ayla’s first name suits her like a glove, but Janic…just doesn’t. Jesse picked both names and for the sake of not arguing at the hospital I gave in but I’m actually looking into changing her name legally now.

Chanel (or Chanelle) is SUCH a better name for her. Everyone that I told about Chanel (pronounced like the store brand) liked it so much better. Jesse is the only one that didn’t like it. He wanted I guess to name our kids after our parents, but that’s so old fashion to me. Besides if you do that, family drama starts. Not only that, but there is a specific order to follow if you name your kids after your parents, and gosh the names just end up ugly and akward. Everyone that I’ve talked to that named their kid after someone ended up regretting it. Ayla is her own individual and I don’t see why we have to name her after anyone.

I read up online a bunch of parents regretting naming their kids something, and honestly I don’t want Ayla to be like ten and still have this horrific name. I HATE this spelling. I would have much rather spelled it Janice or Janiz. My name is spelled so beyong wrong (Antuanett instead of Antoinette), but I like it and most importantly the way it reads sounds the same. But Janic looks like it should be pronounced as Janiq.

I don’t know, and I don’t know if Jesse is really going to want to change it, but if one of us doesn’t like it it’s not fair. He already got to pick her first name that everyone is going to call her by, the least as the mom who is raising her can get is the middle name.

Poor Ayla had her shots on the 24th. She was feeling sick that day and the following. I felt so bad that she wasn’t her usual happy, fat baby self. She was fussy, irritated, with a fever, and her appetite went out the window. Obviously she didn’t follow a schedule because she was sick, but she wouldn’t eat much anyways. She would drink 1oz or 2, and sleep for a little bit. Poor baby she couldn’t rest.

Finally I just called my mom to help me since she was exhausting me. Fortunately, she started feeling better. That’s when I, following doctor’s orders, started to make her wait about 2 1/2 to 3hrs in between meals. Doctor said it’s necessary that she now follows a schedule. I will not argue because I completely agree. She already seems to be doing much better.

I hope she starts getting used to waiting in between meals because she’s so used to just eating all day. What a fatty.

So just to update everyone…

No, Jesse and I aren’t married yet, but he goes around telling everyone we are, lol. It’s cute how he does that. Anyways, we pretty much are married since we live together, have a baby, and are engaged. We were thinking about getting married this 4th of July, but I don’t want to just go to the court and get married. I also don’t want it to seem like this is a shot gun wedding, we have planning marrying each other WAY before I found out I was preggers. Actually, I remember just wanting to drive down to Vegas, good thing we didn’t tho.

I told Jesse it would be best if we wait until the next 4th of July. I don’t mind waiting, and this will be so much better since I can actually plan something. Since I was planning my wedding before, I have a basic idea of what I want. I have to wait to book the place and all the other junk (urghh) before I announce the date for sure.

I guess all the heavy duty planning will start at the end of the year. I don’t think wedding planning is fun, but someone’s gotta do it, since I know for sure Jesse won’t, lol.

FAIL

I don’t know what happened but out of the blue Ayla won’t take her whole bottle anymore. She will drink about 4oz, throw up(sometimes), want more, power nap a hundred times and eat more and finally sleeps. I’m very concerned. It’s like she forgets shes hungry. In order to remind her she’s hungry, I just leave her in her crib until she cries for food, if I pick her up before, she will once again refuse the bottle. She has to be really hungry. This is ridiculous I’m exhausted, but I’m hoping she’s just going thru some kind of feeding frenzy. If this persists, I will have no choice but to fully have her self soothe. I can’t be just sitting there waiting to see when she wants to eat. I feel so bad and sad, but I really have no choice. I won’t get rest or anything done. I even moved her bedtime up to allow her to take a longer time to finish her bottle but, so far, nothing. I’m not sure what to do, I guess I’m just going to have to try a few things here and there and just see what happens. Any suggestions anyone?

Happy father’s day to my dearest Jesse. You are a great dad and a wonderful husband. Ayla is so darn lucky to have a daddy that isn’t scared of holding her, loves changing her diapers, doesn’t mind feeding her, loves to play with her, and just knew about babies before she was even around. She’s going to grow up loving you just as much as I love my own dad.

Feliz dia del padre a mi daddy Renzo. Gracias daddy por cuidarme y criarme con tanta pasiencia. Te agradesco todo lo que haz echo por mi y por mi nueva familia. Yo se que Ayla te va a querer casi tanto como yo.

Happy father’s day to Mike Bradlee. Thank you so much for raising Jesse into the man that he is. You are a great dad and he surely loves and appreciates you, even if he doesn’t say it that often. Thank you for supporting our new little family.

Happy father’s day to Gary Brower. You are such a good dad to my brother, thank you for taking care of him and my mom. Also thank you for worrying and caring about me.

Feliz dia del padre a Nayito, Popi, Tati, Hugo, y Percy. Son grandes papas!

And to all the other father’s out there like Mitch Moser, Efrain, and Suchit!